I wanna be *THAT blogger

I wanna be that blogger who blogs every day, I do, but then I think, really?  No one cares about your life to read about what you have to say everyday.  Ya, great conscience eh?  Anyways, I don't have a whole lot to write about, so I thought I'd do a list of 5 6 things you may not know about me:


1. I'm incredibly shy. Yep. One on one, I'm ok, still incredibly self conscience, and always thinking did I say the right thing? Was I inconsiderate, Did I ask enough questions in return, Did I show interest in what they were saying?  But larger groups of 3-15+ I will rarely speak unless asked a question.

2. I married my first boyfriend, when I was 18.  Oh ya, and he is 6 years older than me, and the love of my life next to Jesus!!  And this summer we celebrate 17 yrs of wedded bliss!!

3. I always wanted 6 kids.  But having 4 c-sections prevented that, and I am happy and blessed with my 4 and am looking forward to what the future holds for their lives. I love kids!! They are so precious, and innocent and adorable. Teenagers on the other hand, are a total different breed (mine anyways).

4. I would love to volunteer for everything if I could.  But see #1.

5. I struggle with my weight. If you know me IRL (in real life) this one is obvious, but I have struggled since I was about 12 or 13. Finding time to exercise, and then sticking with it is a struggle.  I like exercising, and I am somewhat good with knowing portion sizes and healthy eating (knowing and following through are totally different),  I read something on Twitter the other day that I'm still processing. Showing your kids that you care about taking time for yourself to be healthy is one of the best things you could teach them.  I wish I could quote whoever wrote this, but I have mommy brain*.

So, there are 5 things, and I struggled coming up with the last 2.  And maybe you knew those things about me and maybe you didn't, and now do, but I'm just like everyone else, with feelings and concerns, joys and sorrows. 

I thought of one more, at the last minute, that not many people know about me in fact, I don't think ANY of my friends know this one.....this one is tough to write about....

6. I almost committed suicide when I was a teenager. There were a few occasions I found myself in the basement bathroom of my home with a razor in my hand thinking how much pain I was in with constantly getting teased about #5 and #1 didn't help, and having a skin condition (psoriasis).  How I didn't want to live anymore...but as a new christian (like a year) I heard God speak to me (and this is where I lose it).  He told me, straight out, "Wait till you see your husband and children".
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

God is Good, ALWAYS!!

Until next time, which probably won't be tomorrow.... Ara

*mommy brain is a condition whereas after you have kids, somehow your brain just stops working!