10 Years

Saturday night had hubby and I sitting back, relaxing and chatting after the kids went to bed.  It was nice, since he's been on call this past week and has been busy, many very EARLY morning calls.  We were talking and the conversation lead to the future, and where we might be in 5 or 10 years.  And then I sat there and thought, 10 years...TEN YEARS...from now, my oldest, Emmalee, will be 23, Noah will be 21, Alexa will be 20, and Breanna will be 18!!!!!???!?!  WHAT???  Oh my word.  Really?? Ten years ago, I had a 3 yr old, a 1 yr old and a new born.  It is amazing how these past 10 years went by so fast, and as much as I am looking forward to this next season in my life, all my kids becoming teens, and then adults, it scares me a LOT!!  I cried Saturday night.  Tears of fear mostly, there are many reasons I am fearful.  What will I do after they all leave home?  What will I DO?  Where will we be?  What will the kids become?  Will they be married?  When I was 23 I had 3 kids...I can't see Emmalee having 3 kids in 10 years. But you never know right? She might just surprise me.  Only God knows.  My precious little ones are growing up, and fast I might add.  I love them to bits, and can't imagine my life without them.  God gave me each and everyone of these geeks!  :) And I think I will keep them, they are my favourites!