Have you ever wished...

that you hadn't said something after you said it, or maybe the opposite, wished you had said something and it was too late. I have probably way too many times that I'd like to count. For whatever reason or another, there is a hint of regret. That is probably why I am a quiet, shy person. Don't want to say something that sounds stupid, or have people look at me in a strange way for what I said. But I also have to realize that we are not all perfect, we are all sinners. We all have our faults. I wish I was outgoing and had lots of friends, I wish that I was a funner (that doesn't look like a word) person to hang out with. I wish I was more smarter...okay, I did that on purpose, really, I ain't that stupid. Okay, I did that on purpose too. I wish I knew more about the bible, so that I could quote something or look up something when I need.

I am self conscience, I am a homebody, I am shy, I am easily intimidated, I am a follower of Jesus Christ, I am a mother, I am a wife, I am a sister and a daughter. I try to be a good friend, and I know I could be better, but am also afraid of trying too hard to be a friend, and afraid I will scare people off, so I hold back. I love to host parties (ya, even though I don't very often lately), I love to bake, and share with others, I love to go out to peoples houses, I love to go to movies with friends, and I love love going out on dates with my husband. I love my children so much, and am afraid of them growing up, cause that only means I am getting older. I love organizing things, and having things organized, but have a hard time knowing where to start. I love to exercise, and I love change. I love to have time to myself, but also get lonely when that does happen. I have a skin disorder, and I have women issues. I have pains, and hurts. I'm afraid of getting cancer, and dying at a young age. I am overweight, and I don't like it. I am human, just like you.

For those reading this, thank-you for reading. I want to apologize for anything I said that may have offended you, or hurt you in anyway. If I have, please forgive me.