Honesty!!

I hafta tell you, I read a lot of blogs, sometimes I skim over what people write, sometimes I actually take the time and read it. I read one blog posting tonight that I wished I could write like. Maybe not so long winded, but I wish I could write so, Honestly!! Here is her blog, My Charming Kids

There is a part especially that stood out for me:

"I think that sometimes, many times, exceedingly often, for one reason or another, we think one thing in our heads, but say quite another with our mouths. Sometimes we aren't totally honest. And please don't get me wrong. That can be a good thing sometimes.

And there are other times when not being frank and honest can also be beneficial, if it protects boundaries you have set for yourself.

But other times, you just grow sick of having to watch what you say. Sick of not being totally honest. Like me. Tonight. And the irony is that even though you catch flack for not being honest, you will also catch it when you are honest. It is a completely stupid no-win situation and that's why I'm crabby! I've put a zipper on my lip and have refused to spend every minute of every day defending the stupid freaking lies that some people see fit to spread about me. I have focused on the fact that I am comfortable in who I am. That my husband loves me. That God has redeemed me and it is His opinion of me that ultimately matters. I have tried to take the high road, show my maturity, not stoop to anyone's level and refuse to get involved in unnecessary drama. I have been hurt, back stabbed, and ridiculed and have made the decision to fugetaboutit."

There are things I choose not to write about in my blog, if I'm having a bad day, or having a personal struggle with certain issues in my life, or if I'm just not in a good mood, but sometimes I wish I could. Or sometimes I wish that being honest doesn't hurt so much. I have always been a non-confrontational person, they (confrontations) really make me sick. There may even be things in my life right now, right this very instant, I am struggling with, or that has brought me pain deep inside. It makes me sad to think about it. I wish I could be honest, I wish that when I was honest, it didn't haft hurt so much. All I do know that God knows my heart and has redeemed me and it is His opinion of me that ultimately matters!!